Britney Spears Reveals Messages She Sent To Her Mother About Feeling Like Doctors Were "Trying To Kill" Her
Pop princess Britney Spears was under a conservatorship for 13 years, and the whole world watched as she battled to break free from the chains of her father, who controlled her finances and everyday decisions. Now that she's independent, she's sharing details of her conservatorship and how it impacted her.
Britney suffered a public mental breakdown in 2008 after a year of strange behavior, such as shaving her head and attacking a photographer's car with an umbrella. She was placed under a 5150 hold in a psychiatric hospital for a mental health evaluation. Not long after, she was placed under a legal conservatorship with her father as her conservator. After she was able to break free from the 13-year conservatorship, she finally shared harrowing details about what she experienced.
Britney Spears Reveals Messages She Sent to Her Mother about Feeling Like Doctors Were "Trying To Kill" Her
Britney's Instagram account has been an outlet for her ever since her conservatorship ended. She has posted many different things that detail her experience with her family; however, she usually deletes the posts later. She recently posted (and deleted) screenshots of text messages between her and her mother to show the pain she experienced when she was forced into a mental health facility against her will in 2019.
She told her mother that the doctor "wants to UP the seraquil," which is an antipsychotic drug used to treat bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and other depressive disorders. Britney's messages are haphazard and riddled with spelling and grammatical errors, presumably because she was feeling ill from the medication.
"Seraquil I thought was a sleep aid but it's for bipolar and is WAAAAAY stronger than lithium," she texted her mom. "I literally feel all the sick medicine in my stomach... I feel like he's trying to kill me. I swear to god I do."
In the caption of the screenshot photos, Britney wrote, "Here are my text messages to my mom in that place 3 years ago... I show it because there was no response... When I got out, her words were 'You should have let me visit you and give you a hug.'"
Britney also shares text messages she sent to a friend, asking for help to get in touch with a new lawyer. Her friend never responded.
"I had nobody," Britney wrote in the caption. "My sister's text after not texting for 3 days was 'They're not gonna let you go so why are you fighting it...'" In other text messages she sent to her lawyer, she talked about wanting to live "an adventurous life" and "go on three vacations this year."
Britney hasn't shied away from exposing the treatment she received from her family during her conservatorship. She's already signed up to write a memoir detailing her conservatorship experience; the deal was signed for $15 million.