TikToker Mourns Her Abortion And Says Nobody Talks About How Devastating The Experience Is For Women: "I Hate Myself Every Day"

The overturning of Roe v. Wade was a huge win for women and children across the country, but it didn't automatically mean that abortion was suddenly taken away full stop. The Supreme Court decision deferred the final say to the states, meaning there are still many states around the nation that still allow abortion to be made accessible to women. Mainstream culture, celebrities, and many politicians make abortion seem like an empowering decision that is going to help women move their life forward and take control of their bodies. But more and more women are coming to realize what abortion actually is: an act of violence that ends the life of an innocent human being and also places trauma on women that is hard to shake. TikToker @duhhle got candid with her followers and shed some tears about her abortion experience.

TikToker Mourns Her Abortion and Says Nobody Talks About How Devastating the Experience Is for Women

In October 2022, @duhhle, who has 27,600 followers on TikTok, decided to be honest about the aftermath of her abortion. In a stripped down video, she was in tears and asked, "Does nobody talk about how hard abortions are on a woman?" She was visibly upset and had been reeling over her choice for a few weeks.

"It's probably been a month, and I hate myself every day," she shared. "Sucks because in the moment I felt like I was doing the right thing... I'm not a child, I'm an adult... I had all the means in the world to do it on my own."

She thought aborting her baby would benefit everyone else, but she is now doubting whether she made the right decision. After she had the procedure done, she didn't even take some time off to rest, recover, and really come to terms with what she had done. "I didn't even get the chance to be at home or anything, I just went to work," she continued. "I just want this to be over with already. like I'm emotionally drained, I can't do this anymore."

The heartbreaking video has been watched almost 500,000 times and there are over 1,500 comments. Many women shared that they too have struggled to get over their abortions, and they mourn the life of their unborn child. "I had one at 21 and I'm 39 and it's still hard!" one women wrote.

"So brave of you to admit this. I always feel like I can't grieve because it's a choice I made," another woman said.

"It's been 7 years for me, no one really understands it. The silent pain," someone commented.

"It's been a year for me. And I still think about it everyday. I was 5 weeks, I had JUST had a baby and was not in the right place to have another," a mother wrote.

"Aww hunny, in 2015 I ended up in the psych ward after mine. I completely understand your emotion," another woman wrote.

The comments go on and on, and it's easy to see that there are countless women out there who have struggled to come face to face with their decision. Society tells them that they made the right decision and they shouldn't feel guilty about it. But it's only natural to feel guilt and grief over the life of your own child. Just like @duhhle said, our culture doesn't even allow women to feel those things—they just tell women time and time again that it was an "empowering" decision and that it was the right thing to do. There is no room for grieving, sadness, and deep emotion.

Women deserve better than this. They deserve to be supported when they are pregnant, especially if they're struggling, not to be encouraged to abort their own precious child. Even worse, there is hardly any support offered for women who have made the decision to abort their baby. They're simply expected to pick up, move on, and go back to work the next day. There has to be a better way to empower women and help them live a fulfilling life.